Shameful and disappointing!

12.20.04 (5:08 am)   [edit]

I waz reading newz abt the baazi.com CEO and the kind of treatment he is being given in Tihar Jail...it sure iz a pity...I understand he peddled obscene material but isnt the fact that people are buying it equally criminal?
I will be honest,when I was told it(the video) was being fwded through e-mails,I myself wanted to see it...why...why was I interested...no reason in particular...I guess just cos somthing waz the talk of the town so I wanted to see what that waz...naah...not reason enough...now that i sit back and think i honestly dont feel good abt the whole thing...
Is it really a big deal...I guess it happens everywhere but just that it got public made it so ugly!
I wonder about the increasing crime rate of rapes and eve-teasing in Delhi.It is sad...it really is....I hate to accept this...but Delhi for one has more number of people who have no respect for women whatsoever.One half(or maybe more) have the B's to do it in open and the rest dont have the B's to stop this...
The stinker will pester and annoy a female to an extent that she iz not left with a choice but to either slap back or have a gut reaction of getting scared to an extent of breaking down...Its really disheartening...

Update...

12.04.04 (1:36 pm)   [edit]

So my first weekend in the past 3 months when I am not travelling...
I calculated the other day that in the past 10 days I was in the car for 2300 miles...
Akron to DC and back to Akron
Kabhi Akron to Phili to NJ to Boston and back...
But I have enjoyed every second of it.Everytime I travelled with different people and its different everytime.But sure the purpose of every journey has been the same...

So ya..Saw Paycheck last night...liked it...Reading 'A Beautiful Mind' these days...story of 'John Nash'...and am completely engrossed in that...its a must read!
Finally ordered for 'Da Vinci Code' on amazon...want to finish Beautiful mind till I get that.Life is happy and good when I am reading...and I am good with people around...

I admire John Nash for what he was...2 other people who have definitely inspired me in life - 'Dr.Abdul Kalam' ...you have to read his autobiography 'Wings of Fire' to know what I am saying...I picked up alot from there.. 'Dream big,dreaming small is a crime!'

and 'Iacocca'...whose a perfect live example of what Rudyard Kipling says-
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss...

There iz so much to do...and so little time...me going bac to Mr.Nash...
Cherio...

Homesick...

12.02.04 (7:59 am)   [edit]

I want to go home...Ma...Wish you were around ...I am calling for you today...

Missing your lap,
your hands holding me when I need you bad,
your smile...your presence...your love...

Ma,please come and put me to sleep.

I am in love...

12.01.04 (5:39 am)   [edit]

A sensation,an emotion,she closes her eyes with a drop of tear...
she feels
beautiful...but has no words...assuming that he still can hear her
her heart is pounding and the feeling thrives....now is that what is love...it sure is...
if they dont see each other often,its a thought...now is that obsession...what is it...
when she knows that she has just one life to live,who knows how long...


The best part iz...its no more about her...its about them...
an added meaning to life...a boundary,but outside loneliness...
a smile straight from the heart...
a drop of tear,repercussion of the smile...

Few years back,I had told myself that there is much more to life than
love,heart-breaks,dreams, or a life partner...

Today,i can just feel it-time passing by...and me letting it go out of my hands...i left things on time-but it appeared it dint always worked that way! but sometimes it does...atleast it did for me...

My best friend,my companion,our long talks about anything and everything,non-stop hours of laughter,he has been there by me through thick and thin...
Tolerant-when I waz cranky...alwayz there by me when people ditched or hurt me...
Respected me for what I am...encouraged me for what I wanted...

Jai-thanks for all the beautiful moments...sorry for all the hard times..and welcome for your thankyou's...