What is this life if,full of care...
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
A very subjective topic of discussion indeed - 'Is life short?'
Pankaj: So what do you think- Is life long or short?
Me:Its short.Very short...
Pankaj:How can it be short when its the longest thing that ever happens to you.
I still think its short.So much to do,so much to see,experience,touch...and I already feel am running short of time.
Time is passing by,and I have got so much to do.I dont want to miss out on ANYTHING.Noone wants to.But then everyone puts in the most possible to get back the maximum.If I continue with what I am doing right now,why do I feel I am letting this precious time go out of hand.There is stuff I know I want and have to do.Then what am I waiting for...the right time...how will I know that this is the right time.I have to take action...stop planning and deciding...but do something abt it.
Aasman ke paar koyee aur bhee aasman hoga...
kaise malum chalega...kuch to karna padega...
Fancy Dress...
Ever participated in a Fancy Dress...
Its so typical of a school in India to have fancy dress competitions for children.And they are really fun to watch.All those cute little kids walking up the stage with learnt dialogues to spit out.
My parents made sure that I never missed the chance...there was this one time I actually loathed them at that moment for doing sucha a thing to me:).They made me a 'house cleaner'...I was 3 yrs old then.Made me wear a worn out salwar kameez and I was supposed to stand on the stage with a broom in my hand.I hated it.I was up there crying and not doing anything.Now wasnt that too obvious.I can just look back and have a good laugh...I have a pic also while standing on the stage and my class teacher standing next to me,trying to help!
Then another time I became a Daaku.T-shirt tucked in Jeans and Moonche with a black pen.I very smartly carried my big toy gun and shouted 'dishkyun,dishkyun'...'hands-up'...hahaha...that was a fun day!
One more time I can recall is becoming a cat...that one time we actually rented a cats outfit from somewhere and I was supp to say 'meow'...
One replacement of 'fancy dress' could probably be parties with dress codes.or may be 'halloween' parties...but naah...on second thoughts maybe there is no replacement possible...
Peace of mind...
Hum ko man kee shakti dena
Man vijay Karen
Doosron kee jai se pehle
Khud ko jai Karen
Bhedbhaav apne man se
Saaf kar saken
Doosron se bhool ho to
Maaf kar saken
Jhoot se bache rahen,sach ka dum bharen
There are times I need to pray,close my eyes…and just pray!
Everyone has his/her own special way.I think its got nothing to do with believing in God.Its simply for peace of mind!
-I remember Sapna used to just close her eyes every night without fail before sleeping…she told me it gives her peace of mind…
-Noor keeps fasts…does ‘puja’...
-Ma told me to read Hanuman chalisa once a day or when I am frustrated or when I loose my temper…I do it …and it does help.
A 2 min break from the whole world,rests my mind…and keeps me going…
Luxury Vs. Necessity
A new TV,microwave,new fridge,washing machine,music system,computer,invertorâ €¦
I have seen my dad buy all these for our house one by one…with a bit of prioritizing,budgeting and planning…Just when he thought ‘that was all’…there would be a new thing needed or wanted…
It never was it…
I have been in US since 2 years now.Everytime I tell dad I bought a car,laptop,TV,vcr,dvd player…which actually is a necessity,he worries if I am planning to settle here.I have a good laugh and a tough time explaining to him that how things are different for me than they were for him.
He has lived life the hard way.Stuff that’s ‘cool’ for me,is still a big deal for him.I respect it.I know he thinks I don’t value money.He might be right…
But I still think that a luxury becomes a necessity if you can afford it!
Curtains down !!!
In one of my conversations with ma,when i was asking her about each and every relative and neighbor specifically,i realized some of them died over the past one year.One of my neighbor uncles died two months back.I was shocked,taken a back.These were the people I spent my childhood with,who loved me,whom I played with,laughed with...and they dont even exist now.And what difference does it make to my life.Its sad,but the answer is 'nothing'.Ironically,I dont even know about some of them.
Death...I never ever dread my death as much as the death of closed ones.It is so real that I dont want to believe it.The most unpredictable yet the most certain thing in life...and here we are...struggling,complaining,cr ibbing...letting time pass by unable to accept the facts...fear of the invisible,non-existent feeling,bothering ourselves now and then by letting ourself loose and letting people hurt us.
There is a quote i was told in my childhood i rem.
"Jind mereeye ,mitti dee ye dheree,ek din chalna...."
meaning-our bodies are made of mitti and we all have to cease one day!
So there is no time to waste cos we are all dying !!!
School days...
I guess these things would have been common for most of us who went to school in India,apart from personal things that happen with every individual...
-The summer break-garmeeyon kee chuttiyan,the holiday hw done always in the last 2 weeks,
-buying new books,and copies and covering them with brown paper when going to the next class,
-the morning prayers,
-looking forward to class 4 when we would give up pencils and start writing with fountain pens...and then filling them with ink(chelpark)every night ,
-every night packing the bag according to the 'time table' the next day
-playing and running around corridors during interval(8 periods in a day,lunch break after 4 periods...the 4th period would just never seem to pass...)
-the one P.T. period in a week,awaited badly...and playing under the red hot sun very happily...
-eating lunch in the classrooms and specially during the teaching hours,or else somonelse's lunch when he/she wasnt around....
-fighting for standing first in the class...
-wanting to be the monitor or house captain
-the house intraschool activities-(we had orange,green,violet and pink house)
-the sports day,annual day,science exhibition...rehearsals
-slogging in the board exams for good marks...boards are sucha hype for no reason...more of a fear than anything else...
so much more coming to my mind as I remember life at school...its impossible to write everything i guess and a few things difficult to put in words...
So many friends,so much learning,zest,days full of fun remembered forever...