Come with me

Dreadful,horrendous,unner ving,it left shivers in my spine..that close I was from fatality.
That one second of getting lost in my own world…was so close to taking my life away from me.I blamed the truck driver till I read ‘keep back 50 ft’ written behind the damn machine.

I never knew about my zest for living till this happened with me this morning ,when I was driving down to work.I was behind a truck when I thought it was moving too slow and almost changed my lane when it was changing its lane too ,and I dint notice it indicating left because I had not kept a good distance.

[b]Flashback[/b]:
1980 April -my mom lost her 15 yr old sister in an accident.it was the biggest tragedy ever for my family members.
1980 September -I was born.I only hear stories,but I see the emotional outburst in their eyes even though its been 23 years now.A young death in the family can be the worse thing to face ever.

So basically,my life,irrespective of what goes on,is precious to certain people,and I have to realize that.Failures,losses,money crunch…are all too trifle issues to be dealt with,are all a part of the big game.

I know this is it for me -

-Key to happiness is Acceptance-no matter how much under par the truth be-if I accept it I am good…

-Catch some sleep- I get cranky otherwise and a problem seems much bigger than it actually is.

-Best way to get rid of stupid and disturbing mood swings is work-out.

-Laughing out loud- Everyone has those days when they do something really stupid or silly-instead of getting upset with myself,I need to ,need to, laugh out loud.Noone’s perfect and life is about having fun!!

-To ditch stress-be with people-just hang-out and talk.Meet new people,i always learn something new.

-If I plan a bit and get a little organized,I stay away from discombulation and damage…

Abhishek is the elder one.He was 3 when they came to stay with us as tenants on the sec floor in our house-Suneet,Priya Di and Abhishek.Most of the times,whenever suneet and didi wud go out,they wud leave abhishek with us.We obviously got very attached to him.He wud eat,sleep,play,cry,laugh with us.Man,what a genuine laughter…like all kids!!!

And after two years Abhinav was born.He was few hours of age when I first held him.The picture is still so clear in my mind.I can just think about him and smile.So now there were two of them.Abhishek was Puja’s(my sis) favorite,and so the seedha saadha bacha and Abhinav was my favorite hence naughty,brainy and extremely exasperating.

And both of them were my mom’s favorite.I remember when abhinav was born abhishek used to be really jealous of him cos apparently he thought that the little one got all the attention ,and so my mom always made sure that he dint feel that way.Few more years,and they were a part of our lives.I would never return home without getting something for them.Ma would always take them out with her,and even after getting back from work in the evenings,my mom dad would literally call their names first.They were just too attached to them.

The family moved in their new house last year.I cant believe that they are not in that house anymore.They lived with us for 8 years-that’s long…

Abhishek must be 11 now and Abhinav 6.According to their age they are still kids,but believe me they are big now…because I have seen them growing up.All that they shared with us,I am sure they don’t even remember half of it because they were too small.But I remember each and everything.And even now,they cross my mind so many times.

Inside my house there is a big empty area on each floor.So basically we wud keep shouting from one floor to the other calling for each other all the time.And now,there is just ma,pa and Puja…

Its 8.32 a.m.
Waking up by noon or may be later is probably the worst habit to acquire ,but the best thing on this earth.[i]Jaane kahan gaye woh din...[/i]Mez at work and sitting in this chair since an hour and a half now.Only thing that I havent done iz moved...
waking up by 6.25 am,when u actually aimed for 6.05 trust me iz a great achievement...and then driving to ur workplace with a new cd player in the car iz the most wonderful thing that can happen-right!!!
So basically there are lots of positives of getting up early in the mning.......so WAKE UP GUYSSSS....

Icreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeam....5 p.m. sharp-the icreamwaala bhaiya is outside my house...
orange bar,cola bar,limchu,rasberry,mango duet,choco bar,cup or cone-vanilla,choc,butter scotch...and the never ending list...
Sometimes the preference was Kulfi.Kulfi waala-the bell ringer...I was not supposed to have the baraf ka gola(chuskee as we called it!)cos apparently it was unhygienic.but still who cared...
The bhutta waala-boiled bhutta with the mirchi-bahut mirchi waali red sauce...yummmmm....
Aloo kee chaat and the tikkees...
Gol-gappe-bhaiya thoda paani aur dena,bhallas,papris...
Dal mont-with kacha pyaaz and tamaater...
Pao-Bhaji waala...makhan maar ke...

Those endless choices...Those yummy days...
There is nothing that can replace that-NO-THING !!!

The body is functioning for hours continuously...believe me -it gives me a very healthy feeling!

The past 6 years i studied Stats...and now when I am actually applying what I did...it is surpassingly interesting.
To start with I am supposed to quote prices for different parts of a dismantled car.Regardless 2 mention-there are hundreds of cars with different models and years and then hundreds of diff parts in them...there is so much to learn...
and applying my statistical education and knowledge for the analysis is what I am enjoying the most...

My motivation today ,were also the songs from 'main hoon na' and 'hum tum'...ek ke baad ek...so much so that i cant stop humming them forever....

[i]kiska hai yeh tumko intezaar main hoon na
dekhlo idhar to ek baar main hoon na
khamosh kyu ho jo bhi kehna hai kaho
dil chahe jitna pyar utna maanglo..ho..
tumko milega utna pyar main hoon na
em echoing in my ears...[/i]

Call it growing old or whatever-I have always preferred partying at home with booze and music rather than going to a club...
Yeah...have had just too many of them...there was a time we wud party so often that I wanted a change...every sat/sun nite...someone or the other on his lap-top playing dance nos for the bunch drunk and dancing.But then few of the enthu people moved out and the rest few got bored or buzy.Sure I miss those times...but had a similar one this friday night and it was great fun.Hemant initiated and when he called me and made me hear the music in the background,i could not resist myself.
I start work from wednesday and kinda dreading it !
7-5 schedule-i better look fwd to it ...saat baje kaam ko pahunchna..mazaak ho raha hai kya...but i am sure i will get in the routine-no choice....
just amazed at the way time flies...too young to start working ya...its going to be a changed life...
I always tend to consider changes to be very hard-cos i overestimate the value of what i have and underestimate the value of what i may gain by giving that up...guess a realization shud be good enough to keep me going...

I never ever imagined myself being away from home...
My friend Rajiv was studying in Akron and so I happened 2 apply here in Oct 2001.
Tenth day of Aug 2002 i received my I-20 with an offer letter of full assistantship at the univ of akron .Still remember that day,I was shocked,happy,anxious...my parents were very happy and proud but sure since it wasnt expected they were upset...my sis was in bbay that time and flew bac to delhi the same nite since i had my viza interview the following day.So here i was-with all the documents in hand,a bit nervous,a bit hopeful...if i get it i am leaving home at a very short notice...and as u see -i sure got it...
got my tickets booked for the 24th.school was starting frm 26th.i procastinated it as much as i cud.i was scared...how will i manage everything alone-will anyone help me at the airport,what if i get lost...it sounds really funny now...but trust me it wasnt at that time.

My friend Rajiv in Akron was sweet enough to arrange a place to stay for me-[b]450 Allyn street[/b]..i remembr rajiv tellin me online-sapna and shradha will be ur roomies.he gave me sapnas email id and i chatted with her once from India before leaving...
priya-'hi sapna..so we r going to be roommates...
sapna-yup...but why are u coming so late?
priya-i just got back from my farewell party my frends had for me
sapna-no i mean to akron...why 24th
priya-will tell u when i reach...is thr anything u need frm here
sapna-no dont bother,its ur first time and u will have alot of ur stuff

i was so tense-kaisee hogi ye ladki-pata nahee...

Sapna-ab kya kahen...saps as we call her-she is the best roomate i could have ever had.450 allyn-was our home-we have had the best moments in akron while our stay over there.I was new to everything,and was comfortably made familiar,my mood swings-she cud figure them out in a sec-i still dont know how...
i still remember, everyday when i wud reach bac home from class at 8.00 pm i would hope kee sapna ghar par ho.uska car hai ya nahee dekh kar i wud know that she was or wasnt home.before leaving for work she would wake me up at 8 am by her own sweet ways...and i wud be so mad at her at that time...

all those hindi serials we wud watch together-thr was this particular one we wud see daily and i still remember we were both so sad when it ended and actually got a pic with the tv set...
aur jassi jaisee koyee nahee was more imp than anything else...
dance on the hindi nos deciding who will imitate the hero and heroine..the best one ever has been 'jumma chumma de de' where i was amitabh and saps was kimmi...
all those parties,movies,get togethers..Hemant,Phani,Brijesh,Pank aj,Madhu,Disha...we wud have the 'group activity' joke then...
i guess i have endless memories with her and that house, and i can go on and on about it...
such beautiful days- they just leave a smile on my face :) everytime i think abt it...